Does Your Soul Know It Well?

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This week I have been working on a project. An assignment. A hard one! I’m enrolled in a 5-day course that will help me with my big dream. Each day has a lesson and one assignment. Seems simple enough. Except it took me to the very end of day 3 to be happy with my day 1 assignment.

I had been given great feedback and probing questions from the instructor. I sent my rough draft (I had maybe 6 or 7 rough drafts) to my mom, who is a writer. My husband looked it over and helped me dig through word choices and their meaning and theological significance. I felt like I was going nowhere. And here’s the kicker: I was only writing four sentences. Four!!! That’s it. It was so hard to me to get everything I wanted to say, to explain it so clearly, to be true and faithful to my calling and faith into four little sentences.

At the end of day two, I really started to question myself. Was this really what God is calling me to do? If I can’t write four little sentences, how am I going to complete my book or speak truth into others. Maybe I should stop now. No one would really miss what I bring to the table. There are so many others doing what I want to do. Really Lord? Me?

All lies!

You see, I do believe God created me for this. For many things, but especially for this. God has known this since the beginning, and if I really stop, breathe and thing about it, I know it too.

“For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb.

I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.

My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth.

Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them.”

Psalm 139:13-16 (ESV)

I believe that you were created on purpose. No matter your circumstances. God knew you and created you on purpose and for a purpose. There is nothing in you; your desires, your faults, your challenges, your dreams; nothing is hidden from God. We are products of God’s handiwork. I believe there are God ordained dreams in our souls and as we walk our path, those dreams come into fruition. But that doesn’t mean there will be challenges or struggles or days when we want to give up.

My soul did not know it well. I forgot, even if just for a day. I made it about me and not about Him. I questioned, and wavered, and was ready to give up. But I didn’t.

When you find yourself in a place where your soul does not know it well, how can you bring yourself back? How can you remember? For me, I needed to go to bed and sleep. I needed to focus on gratitude and prayer. I needed to read from the Bible. And then I needed to stop second guessing myself and get back to work! God made me for this! What amazing, awesome, inspiring thing did God make you for?

A Small Patch of Sun

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Do you see that tiny patch of sunshine? That’s where I’m sitting. On the floor, with the warm sun on my back. Paw Patrol is on the television and I’m digging into Psalm 34.

It’s been a hard week. One of those “Really? All of this in one week?” kind of weeks. I’ve had to say hard, grown-up words to my children. Words they should be too young to hear, but society challenges me, no – forces me to speak them. To have conversations with them. To speak truth over them.

It’s also going to snow this weekend. The weather is very trivial compared to everything else this week, but I have been cold since October and I’m ready to be warm again. This is why I’m sitting on the floor in the sunshine. Maybe I can soak in enough to make it to next Wednesday, when the sun will reappear.

Psalm 34 says:

“I sought the Lord, and he answered me and rescued me from all my fears. Those who look to him are radiant with joy; their faces will never be ashamed.” v.4-5

and

“The eyes of the Lord are on the righteous, and his ears are open to their cry for help.” v.15

This is the simple truth that I need this week. God sees me. In those hard conversations and situations, where I feel completely lost, God sees me. He knows right where I am. He is always with me. This sweet, sweet promise is one I hold on to tight. Even more so in weeks likes this one.

Maybe you are in a hard season. Or a hard week. Or a hard moment. God sees you.

Maybe you’ve had to have hard conversations. With a spouse. With children. With a co-worker. With a friend. God sees you.

Maybe you are still stuck in winter and are praying for spring. God sees you.

Even with our situations seem dark, and make God harder to see, his sovereignty, his power, will hold you and sustain you. No matter how loud your day is. God hears you.

Look past the dark. Look through the noise. Walk toward His presence. His love. His promises.

Go and sit in that small, warm patch of sunshine, and soak it in!

Perspective

Perspective.

Perspective

Do you need a new perspective for this year?

Sometimes all it takes is looking at things from the bottom up.

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Or the top down.

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Try getting up close and personal and really studying the details. Feeling them.

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There is beauty there!

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“Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.”

Philippians 3:13-14