I have been waiting for my word. Waiting longer than I wanted. I was ready back in December, when I had my 2019 calendar and new notebook waiting. I was ready to be lit on fire and filled with purpose. I wanted a word that had momentum, and light, and would put me on the path I wanted. I had a blog post ready, filled with all the words, ready to inspire others as we got ready to turn the page to 2019. I was ready.
But God said wait.
The word, or really two words, and Bible verse for our family came like a gift. It was so clear and fit our family and current situation perfectly. It spoke to our family’s truth and put us on a clear path forward and toward God. Not just for this year, but forever. There was purpose and action and love. I ordered a print of the words and put them on our wall. But they were our family’s words, and I knew God had something more for me.
And still, God said wait.
I took out my empty notebook and wrote down our family verse and words and three things I felt God calling our family to in this new year. I turned the page and wrote down “My One Word for 2019” and made a place for my word. Then I wrote down every word that came to me. I just dumped them onto the page. I wrote over 50 words. All of them good and fitting words, but none of them seemed right. I had about three words that struck me the first weeks of January. I would write them down on scratch paper to see how they looked. I worked ideas and plans around those words, but there was always something a little off. They worked if I looked at them in a certain light, but in the darkness, they didn’t hold true.
My notebook looked the same, until today.
“No go, I will help you speak and teach you what to say.”
In 2018 I became and in 2019 I will speak.
- I will allow God to speak into my heart and every area of my life.
- I will speak truth into dark place.
- I will speak God’s truth into our children.
- I will speak to crowds big and small. (I already have two speaking engagements on the books for March.)
- I will speak less and listen more.
- I will allow God to speak through me.
- I will speak truth to lies and love to hate.
- I will speak slowly when my words want to rush out in anger.
- I will speak truth to anxiety and fear, for they are not of God.
- I will say “Speak, God. I am your servant, ready to listen.” 1 Samuel 3:9
And this is only the beginning. The list goes on and on and as far as God will take me this year.
“My Spirit, who is on you, and my words that I have put in your mouth will not depart from your mouth, or from the mouths of your children, or from the mouths of their descendants from this time on and forever,” says the Lord.”
May I listen more than I speak, and may the words that I speak be a sweet balm to your soul.